Moving On

Well, we have decided (with some advice) that maybe it would be best to move on and leave the Carol situation behind! :( It's such a sticky, uncertain mess right now and Carol doesn't see at this point how it will work, so we are trying to release her from out hearts and minds. We felt a connection with her and it is really hard to leave it behind, but we are trying to trust that this is the open door we are suppose to be walking through!
We had a ray of hope for a couple days when our lawyer told us of a preemie boy that had been born and the young, single mother had decided after being with baby for 6 wks in NICU that it was too much for her to handle alone. But they had taken mother to the nearest specialty hospital to have the baby and that happened to be in the next state and our lawyer couldn't get the legal part all worked out and then the mother requested the family to be from Arkansas so that fell through as fast as it came to be!!
Vaughn has a mother now that he needs a family for, but she is only 4 months along and he feels quite confident that there will be a mother come to him later in pregnancy that he could match us with. So for now we are taking his advise and going to hold out for a possible later term mother.
I just hate the uncertainty of it all!!! It feels like we back to square one not knowing if we will have a baby in 6 weeks or 6 months and if it will be boy or girl!!  If we were just starting out 6 months would seem so quick, but after counting down weeks for the last several months and dreaming and getting prepared for a girl it's hard to switch gears and be totally neutral on gender and accept the possibility that it could be after our original due date! Oh well such is life, eh?! In the grand scheme of things this is such a little bump, but it's pretty easy to make a mountain out of a mole hill! :-)
Maybe next post will be some really exciting news!!!